One Month to live...

In our small group, we are going through a video series called: One Month to Live.

The premise is what would you change if you found out you only had one month to live? What would you do differently? What would change in your life and why would you wait to change it?

Tonight we talked about Leave Boldly and we discussed what would our legacy be. They also have "activities" to do. Tonight it was writing your obituary which Steve and I would really rock at because we know the format. Name, age, died in a local hospital. She/He was involved in his/her church, in the following organizations, she/he loved to garden....blah, blah, blah...I told Steve I don't want to be known for my accomplishments or the organizations I was involved in. I want to be known for who I am. That got me thinking: who am I and what is the legacy that I would like to leave?

As a wife, I want to be known as an encourager to my husband. I want people to remember the love that I had for him. I want people to realize that we had fun together, we laughed together and we cried together. We experienced life together and we prayed for one another and with one another.

As a mother, I want to be known as a mom who prayed for and with my girls. I want them to remember how much love I have for them. I want them to know that I am so proud of them; that my heart hurts when they hurt and that I hurt when I can't be close to them when they need me. I want them to remember me as a mom who encourages them and doesn't mind if they call me in the middle of the night. I want them to remember silly things that we did and picnics that we took and taking the sled to see their grandparents down the street.

As a mother-in-law, I want my sons-in-law to know that they are both my favorite. I want them to know that I see the love that they have for my daughters in their eyes and with their actions. I want them to know that I am proud of them and that I really mean it when I tell them that I love them and that I pray for them. I want them to know that I really do see them as sons, men that I have prayed for long before they met and married my girls.

As a grandmother, I want my grandchildren to know me. I want to know them. I want to know what books they love, I want to know that they fell and hurt themselves or that someone hurt them and that I care about how they feel. I want to pray with them. I want to hold them. I want to make forts, build sandcastles, and laugh with them.

As a friend, I want my friends to know that I care for them. I pray for them and desire to pray with them. I want them to know that when they tell me things, it stays with me. I want them to know that I cherish their friendship.

But most of all, I want people to look at me and see Jesus Christ in my life. I want them to know that I love my Savior and trust Him for the daily events that enter into my life. I want people to see that I am a child of a King...a true princess of the Creator. I want to direct people to Him with my life and my words. I want people to see Him in everyday life...in the child's laugh, the tears of a broken soul, the colors in the rainbow, the majesty of the mountains, and the power of the ocean. I want others to see that I love to serve Him.

So, what is my legacy? Being intentional -- make sure that these things get said to the ones whom I love and to continue to live each day with the grace and peace of Jesus. Do I have one month to live? Not that I know of...but I want to live my life and express my faith daily....like...I only had one month to live.