This is the book that my small group is reading. Patsy talks about all of the different lights in our lives and compares those lights to our spiritual lives. She has talked about nightlights, Christmas lights, flashlights, reading lights...well, you get the idea. This week we were reading about street lights and spotlights.
It got me thinking about a couple of things...first streetlights... Patsy Clairmont mentioned the movie, Singing in the Rain where Gene Kelly swings around the lamppost and declares that he was in love and just wanted to be walking on his love's street [This author did warn that it was not to be done in real life but it's a little late now]...I realized that when I saw that movie as a very little girl, that was the love I wanted. To my recollection, Steve has never danced up and down our street, singing in the rain and declaring he only had to be on my street for me to realize that he loves me and it IS real. I decided that this was the beginning of many "pictures" of love that distorted my mind about what love should look like. (Just so you know, he has never come to me in a limo and climbed up a fire escape either). .. But I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that he loves me.
The next chapter was on the spotlight. Of course it got me to thinking, if I had a choice, would I choose to have my path lit with a spotlight...at first...maybe... Then after consideration, I may back track and decide I really don't want to know some of the outcomes...loss of a loved one or an unwanted, undesired diagnosis would be right up there on the list for me that I would not want a warning because I already tend to be a "fretter." I can't imagine knowing something beforehand...I could be a mess in no time.
God knows what is best for each one of us. For some paths He lights the way with His spot light but in other situations, He illuminates my path with a candle light. There are moments in life that I long and beg for a spotlight when He lights a candle for me. He knows when I need to place my full trust in Him. He knows that if I had a spotlight view, I would probably run and hide and not take a step because a paralyzing fear has ensnared me and I can't take that step in faith. Other times when uncontrollable, irrational fear stops me from walking in faith, He turns on His spotlight to dispel the darkness and realize the shadows of life for that path are neither scary nor real.
God is God-our personal God who knows the perfect light and illumination we need in life and I praise Him for it. I praise Him for His intimate knowledge of who I am and how I will respond; and trust Him to use the right type of light for every situation, in every day. At times, a candle light and His hand are so much better for me when I walk through a difficult time. While other times, He spotlights His plan for me so that I will know which way to go. All of the light He shines on me has one purpose...that I reflect that light to others.
I think that sometimes because I can't see beyond the circle of light that I forget that no matter what I am going through...His light is sufficient. Really....He truly is sufficient for every breath I take...so, each day, I need to breath and trust Him and His plan for me....
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